This always happens - before a sporting competition, before a choral performance, before a show - I feel extremely anxious to the point of inadequacy. Something inside me constantly nags to withdraw and hide away.
I've somewhat foolishly agreed to help Daren from one of my other classes to swim for the upcoming NUS Biathlon, which incidentally is next Sun. I keep thinking I must be crazy! I only have one week to prepare and I haven't touched water for almost 2 months, much less do the 800m! BUt that poor kid couldn't find anyone else to swim for him and he isn't a strong swimmer so he's chosen to compete in the relay instead of the individual category.
But I must be crazy! I'm getting too old for such things; not the challenge of physical endurance, but the performance anxiety!
And I just tried the 800m earlier today. It was tough! But thankfully I still managed to complete it and clock a decent time - hopefully not an embarrasing one in the light of the professional athletes and biatheletes that will be competing with me!
AAARRRGGGHHHH! HELP!
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