Estrangement

These three days have been unusual in every sort of way. I feel estranged from a certain reality of my life.

I can't reveal too much because of national security and what have you but I must say I have not been very used to those long hours of rest and waiting - having absolutely nothing to do. It was such for the first two days and it was thoroughly painful for a conscientious workaholic like me. Thankfully, there were tasks today - learning a new command and comms system, employing it and preparing for the map-planning exercise over the weekend.

It'll be outfield deployment next week. Wea[pon, camo, shellscrapes, trenches ... the works. In some ways I look forward to it. Miss being out in the field - being useful in that way I guess. How odd. I must think I am mad but I guess the army, in my active days, made me a different person and made me love the outdoors very much. And in some ways, I miss the simpler times of yesteryear.

Well, things have been happening in school judging from the emails that I've been getting but it's such a great feeling to not be able to care. Or rather, not wanting to care on the basis that I'm officially 'away'! :) Been thinking about some things in school though - like the SYF rehearsals, appeals, and of course, my class. Hope they're doing alright.

Another 8 days to go ... I'm kinda enjoying this break though!

Gotta sleep soon. IPPT tomorrow. Let's see how I perform.