Incoherence

Am feeling incoherent and severely tipsy now after 2 bottles of wine. It was a wonderful evening with Bliss and Phyl coming over to hang and relax. The company was enjoyable. More importantly, the honesty - as friends - was and is very much treasured. I truly enjoyed having them over and am sincerely grateful to have them as colleagues and friends.

I've not been able to find time to pen down my thoughts lately. Everything's been moving so rapidly and one just gets so easily caught in the whirligig of motion that things which matter often are neglected. It's often this conflict that I struggle with everyday - in school. I am certain of my intentions everyday when I step into school but when I sit at my desk and start to wrangle with the work, the real reasons become masked by the supposed necessities. I would love spending more time with the kids, getting to know them, just 'hanging' out with them but I can never do that enough because there is always more work to be done. Sad really ... and that's how 4 months of this year have gone by.

The SYF competition is in 1.5 weeks time and the anxiety is taking its toll on me both physically and mentally. The annual production is in about 4 weeks and the climbing competition, pumpfest, is in about 4 weeks. Term 2 is often the worst of the year. Too much happening, with too little time. The things that matter - Esther's birthday, Fionna and Xiang Yi's birthday card; the birthdays of my own friends Lena, Ros and Jonathan, have been neglected and constantly deferred. Sometimes I begin to wonder where my time is really going and how much good am I actually doing.

And before one knows this batch that I have nurtured and taught for two years would graduate. And I'm quite certain I would miss them.