Change

Change is the only permanence ...

I've seen it appear as a GP essay question in one of the college's examination papers. How does one write about something as existential as that, as confounding and irresolute?

And that phrase was brought to mind last night when Ershad expressed his apprehensions about graduating; about the ways in which time just seemingly passed so quickly these two years. As much as I tried to convince him that life is about change and change characterises life, there is no other reality, I needed to be convinced as well.

For every now and again, I need to make myself believe the things I thought I believed in. If anyone is more fearful of change, it is I. Change means letting go of something that has come to pass; it means things no longer are, has deteriorated or somehow is not how it was any longer; Change means moving on; Change means losing the familiar; Change means trodding towards the uncertain future. And uncertainty rattles me - even when I was a child.

But through the years, and the most difficult of times that I have emerged from not too long ago, I've come to appreciate change and to understand fully, and be convinced, that it is only in change where growth can and will occur. Perhaps that's one valuable lesson that has emerged from those years of struggle.

Perhaps that's why 'Bedshaped' has a deeper significance for me. A friendship, a relationship drifted away, a hope that it would be like it was once again, but a realisation that it might never be.

Everything passes. So what is existence when things, situations, and relationships are so fleeting and transcient?