I've been asked why ...
Politically correct reasons are given but the truth is so paradoxical yet so real to me.
Because I love so much what I do now; because I love it with a passion that I would dedicate without question my time, energy and efforts. Because I love educating, I love imparting knowledge and that little wisdom, I love seeing eyes widen with realisation and understanding; because I love seeing how they grow emotionally and intellectually when they are challenged; because I love how being there takes me out of myself; because I know that I'm making some change, for the better, however minute it may be.
And that perhaps is the idealist in me, the one that gets discouraged by the misplaced motives of others in the same profession, the one that believes in values that no longer mean anything for anyone else, the one that would fight on invisible grounds with no tangible gains, the one who gets disillusioned with each passing day about a system that robs the very life, energy, innocence and youth of those it purports to nurture, the one who believes in the remotest corners of his cynical mind there can be some state of utopia ... some ...
That is why I need to go ...
And life has been surprisingly kind in a long spade of unsurprising and disparaging events. I am a few steps away from closing this chapter of life and opening another - rather revisiting another in a new land and place.
I will miss this chapter particularly the many adorable young characters that have helped filled the narrative these past 3.5 years. But I know I can always re-read this chapter - in my memory.
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Take a break, and perhaps you might realise once again that it does not matter that much, after all, what the bots are doing as long as you stay true to yourself. Take a break, and perhaps you might once again relight a lost flame. Take a break, and discover if you can live with yourself.
I would die fighting a losing battle to inspire the people around myself, however few they may be.
Would you?
(How else can you change the world? How else do you want to change the world?)
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