Tuesday, October 18, 2005

Complications

So much to say, yet so little time to say it.

It's been a most eventful birthday - a sour-sweet experience I can't quite fathom nor be certain of.

But life can get so complicated and we are just thrown with and against the forces that often can dictate our lives. In a gyre, we are spun around desperately trying to assert control and sense. And in that senselessness we no longer can quite distinguish a blessing and a curse; one morphs into the other that polarities and absolutes are dissolved.

I can't quite tell if what is happening to me now is a blessing or a curse. I fear, as much as I anticipate with joyful anxiety, the decision I will make.

More when I have the time again.

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